Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Inspire me, help me, save me
I don't know whats happening to me lately.
I dont feel anything.
Its like Im NUMB; but not physically.
I dont know how to explain it but its like I dont care about anything.
I have been shutting people out, my friends, my family; I have no interest in doing anything.
I havent been eating much but still more than I should, like 650 calories!.. and my problem is that I dont care.. Its weird cause all I want is to be skinny, I want my bones to show, I want people to notice me and care!..
I really really need ur support u guys, some inspiration!.. I dont know whats happening to me, im so depressed, im letting go!..
I will only eat 300 calories, that is my max!..
I have to do this, help me do this!.. im so close!
At least I hit the gym today, lost like 300 calories but its not enough cause I got home and ate some carrots and some cheese, and I dont know why I did it, I wasnt even hungry..