I weighed myself today, i weigh 51.9 which means I lost 400 grams.
I bought hydroxycut and xenical to lose faster and im still fasting.. I also burnt 500 calories at the gym.. I dont get why Im losing so slowly.. This sucks and im hungry and in the worst mood..
Im still going through hell.. the situation with the naked pictures is starting to explode and im gonna have to tell my dad before someone sends them to my family.. im scared.. i dont know what he will do.. maybe hit me or kick me out of the house.. i dont wanna think about this anymore.. i need some sleep, i havent slept in a week... i dont know what to do anymore.. my life is falling apart infront of me and there is absolutely nothing i can do..
I guess u guys think im boring or something cause u stopped commenting.. or maybe u just think im fat.. oh well..
tears are flooding my eyes again.. how many more tears do i have inside me? its like there is an ocean inside me and all the water is coming out, and then ill be dry and empty, and i can even feel everything getting thirsty inside me, dying..
I can feel people watching me, staring at me, pointing fingers at me.. even in the darkness, even when i sleep, even when im alone.. why do i even bother wearing clothes anymore, everyone has seen me naked already..
Ana is all I have left.. if my life is gonna suck at least i wanna be pretty and thin.. my body isnt even my own anymore..it has become public..